Morning

Just a quick bit before I am off to shift. It is quiet and I rarely get these quiet, sacred moments to myself.

I working on little sleep, so forgive me if I ramble. The sky is blue, with clouds dispersing bringing humidity...It reminds me so much of my island home.

Can one miss two places at once? Can you feel homesickness for two places at once?

Hawaii calls me back with this EL Paso morning, and San Diego's beauty has me craving a walk at the Cove and breakfast at the Bungalow.

Sigh...I keep telling myself to be present but the workload at MLL is causing me to regress to "calm waters."

New students coming in who read my blog will soon understand that work load.

I have one word for you "Surrender"...Seriously, you will never know another time in your life when you are stretched so your boundaries. I know I write a lot of the beauty of MLL, but you also need to know a bit of the shadow so you can cope.

Here is my mantra right now, telling myself that this is temporary madness helps...In the future, after MLL...

You will rarely fold laundry at 2am in your real life.

You will rarely be filing at midnight again...

You will do very few 36 hour days...

There will be few 4+ cup blood losses...

You will have few times that you are up 24hrs, have class, then go home, get as much sleep as humanly possible in a night, then have shift again...

10, 1 hr appoints in a row will probably be a rare occurance...