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Monday, November 27, 2006

Mother Nature

I haven't written in awhile, things continue to flow for us well here with a few stops and starts, minor glitches. It seems like conflict would be more exciting for a blog no? I haven't written much because life here seems to continue to astound me, energize and lift me up. I feel like a broken record. If you don't want to hear me wax philiosphical, read the last paragraph, it contains the birth story.

I really do believe that the power behind your emotions is what drives how your life unfolds. Life unfolds sweetly now, the glitches seem so minor that they are not worth putting much energy into complaining about (housework, homework, car repairs, ocassional grumpy children, ocassional grumpy staff members and students).

So the "feeling sense", the power behind these lovely feelings, continues to be the lense through which I am viewing my time here. Good good things continue to unfold.

I could write an entire blog on the color of the trees here as they prepare for winter. I understand why so many writers wax poetic about fall and how it sets the world ablaze with its stunning shades of yellow and green against an azure and cloudless sky. The upper valley, where our home is located, is like fairy land to me. I have never lived in a place with grand seasonal changes. I could stand still in our back yard for awhile and just watch the yellow leaves of trees drift gently down and make feathery piles on the green grass. Sometimes, after dropping off the kids at school, I drive aroud the neighborhood just to look at Pecan orchards in their seasonal bloom.

Silly, sentimental me. Natures beauty has always been my church. As a child it cradled me, as an adult it feeds my soul.

I almost titled this post "PRAYER" because of the power of it, prayer in nature, prayer in birth...

My last catch brought tears to my eyes because of that power. That was the way this laboring mom coped with the intensity of her labor....she had her rosary beads in her hands, and at the peak of contraction she whispered a prayer to the Virgin Mary and rubbed on the beads. It was stunning to watch her draw on the power of that. Her voice was so soft, her words inaudible and sacred. Her body moved instinctively to that ritual. She moved in a circle around the room, moved her hands to the circle of the beads. Her voice circled through the prayer over and over again.

Ok, I ran out of time...will post the entire story next entry. The point is though that mother nature is amazing, I see it around me and I get to see it in this midwifery journey. Trees, mammas, babies...

6 comments:

lesa said...

you're not silly, you're receptive. what a blessing!

i'm sending you an email with my travel plans ... will call soon, once things calm down a bit! thank you again for your help and generosity!

jjcups said...

You already know something I'm just now learning...you create your life with your emotions! Keep being joyful & more joyfull things will come to you.

"Loving Pecola" said...

I love reading your train of thought. I didn't know one could participate as an intern there without living on site! Is that something that is regularly allowed? I am a CNM student and I wanted to come for the summer, but I didn't want to live on site!

Sunshine said...

Actually at MLL, no one lives on site. You might be thinking of CASA where the interns live there. Yes, come for the summer! It is a great way to get experience.
Sunshine

"Loving Pecola" said...

Thanks sunshine, I was thinking of Casa. MLL is the site where they said you must have a vehicle, right? I need to go back to the website...

Sunshine said...

A vehicle is helpful; especially when you have to go the hospital with families. However there are plenty of people who share cars for these occasions. A lack of a car can usually be worked out.